Rachel’s mother died when she was six, leaving her to be raised by a psychotic, suicidal father. Rachel nearly died from the effects of anorexia, and as she got older she separated herself from her father in order to protect her own sanity. He became reclusive.
Later in life, she wondered whether she should seek to restore her relationship with her father. A friend asked Rachel if she was strong enough to re-enter her father’s world. Rachel responded that when she was at the low point in her life, she attended church and came to know a Jesus who loved her to the point of dying for her. This, she discovered, “meant I didn’t have to kill myself after all.” She explained that this was what saved her, not the doctors. So, she said, she could do nothing less than try to reconnect with her father to seek to save him.
Rachel could have held on to her pain but would have missed the blessing. St. Paul writes: “What shall we say then? Are we to continue in sin that grace may abound? By no means! How can we who died to sin still live in it?” (Rom 6:1-2)
Prayer: Lord, release us from that which keeps us from being your bearers of grace and love. Amen.
Today’s devotion was written by Thomas W. Corbell,
Pastor of Mt. Hermon Lutheran Church in Statesville, NC.